you'll never see me cry

Thursday, June 21, 2007

one more month to e release of e LAST harry potter book . WOOHOO !
hahas .
two more months to my birthday . YAY!
hahas.

so yeah . holidays comin to an end .
like it was a holiday anw …
hahas . but it was ok la .

today was fun . hahas .
missed faze&helmi alot .
dey came over . to study . yupps .
went to e games rm to study .
it is jus a rm full of tables & chairs la .
no games all .
studied awhile . but we ended up clownin arnd .
hahas . funny la .
made me realize hw much I missed spendinn time wif dem.
hahas . love u both =)

tml is another day spent at home .
studyinn. rite. probably end up reading bk la.
My dearest dad doesnt seem to wan to buy me a new fone .
esp when I m like obsessed over one nw .
NOKIA N76 !

sorry. I jus love it . no idea y .
daddy! buy for me la ! I promise to study hard =)
hahas . okok .
I shall jus dream on la . hais .
hahas . someone buy for me as an early burfdae present la =)
hahas . rite,
dream on tas …

{ 7:43 AM }

Sunday, June 17, 2007

one more wk to go .
till e end of e so-called holidays .

lessons had started on thur . nt bad la .
e new sch . although it is kinda far .
hve to walk like 10 to 15 mins to e busstop.
& another 10 mins to sch .
nvm . shall treat it like some form of morning exercise .

e weekend was ok .
on fri , I slept like a log la .
my cuz came over . but I still slept at 12 anw .
& woke up e next morning at 11.45 .
Realli needed e sleep.
Had been sleepin late & wakin up early .

ytd went to my cuz burfade party .
fun la . hahas. as always .
my cuzs clowning arnd . hahas . but ytd was really damn fun.
den my aunty oso . loads of stories to share .
slept at 3 . & for e first time in a very long time .
woke up at 1 . tt is real late 4 me .
usually e latest I wake up . bout 11 ? 11.30 ?
yeahh . did chem awhile .
den read bk . hahas . cant help it la .

so yeahh . my life is startin to get into gear once again .
sch is bck . need to study . full-swing nw.
goodbye to hanging out after sch .
goodbye to my dearest hp . =x

erm . so hw ah clown ? when ? i m waiting . patiently .

{ 7:42 AM }

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

everything has its limit .
seriously. dream on.
If u dont want to . den y shuld I ?
arghh . dont irritate me any further la.
U cn be so pathetic & STUBBORN at times .
why me ? why nt YOU ?
wadeva . fed up jus thinking of it .
jus rmb , I m nt gg to do anything . ANYTHING .

interesting day . great morning . hmphh .
it was great . but nw tt I think bout it .
I feel like cryin . & tt is nt gd .
I hve nt cried all yr . so dont make it seem I m cryin 4 u .
U dont deserve such an honour .

didnt study much . a little.
Ate dinner out as usual.

Another problem arises .
Actually it has been thr 4 awhile alr .
But I m addressing it nw onli .
Cos it is due tml . great.
I realy hope I cn make it okies .
Sorry to e ppl concerned .
U noe I wuld love to come . seriously .
u both mean e world to me .
sorry alrights . frm e bottom of my heart .
stil prayinn a miracle happens & I cn make it .

hais. disappointed .
big time .
=(

{ 8:15 AM }

Monday, June 11, 2007

hahas . another wk has passed .
2 wks of holidays .
Unfortunately 4 me . dis wk has been totally UNPRODUCTIVE .

mon was fun . hahas =)
for half an hr . at least . hahas.
there is a first time to everything .
& some are really enjoyable . indeed .

tue. u noe wat . I cant rmb wat happened ?
I think I was hm studying . yeah . shuld b la .

wed gt a el seminar thingy . quite boring .
but overall ok la . after tt , go town & bugis.
hahas. Quite fun la . terra café . hahas .

thur . wtf . I cant rmb anything …..
wat is happening to me . everyday oso seems e same.
I did something on thur . aiyo . cannot rmb.
Forget it.

fri , hahas . go play pool.
wif e indians . hahas . fun la .
didnt noe hw to play . but stil ok la .
go eat all . gt scolding though.
came hm late . yeahh .
kinda grounded . hahas . wadeva .
like tt is gona stop me .
went over to stay at aunt hse .
was fun . had company all nite long .
went bck hm e next day . slept like a logg .

ytd morning went to santhiya hse .
blahblahblah . quite interesting .
went hm sleep .
understand wat I meant by UNPRODUCTIVE?
oh yeah . my dearest clown burfdae .
HELMI ! hahas . he rocks =)
hope I cn make it on wed sehh . hais..

so anw , today went to sch . new campus .
hahas . walkin arnd in circles . rite aisyah ?
e sch isnt as bad as I expected it to be .
I mean e classrm is smaller . but overall, nt bad la
onli problems I hve wif e shifting is .
e non-airconditioned hall . hais . o’level somemore .
e travellin time frm hm to sch . need wake up earlier .
e timing of e shift . like hello . june ? when o’levels is practically 4 mths away .
no bio lab . e thought of usin another lab . wth la .

so yeah . went to eat , den watch shrek3 . kinda funny . I guess .
kinda got into trouble wif my mum on e fone . wadeva
went walking arnd jurong wif naiimah & chan .
I was like some mayor . hahas . very funny .
came hm . mood fuckedd up . wadeva .
an hr . sucked . went to eat dinner .

kinda grounded dis wk . great .
my hp usage is being kinda controlled .
so if I dont reply u , thr might b a gd reason to it .
when sch starts , I dont think I get to use my fone at nite .
goodbye to my latelate nights . my midnight calls . my early morning sms chats .
I guess it is 4 my own gd . yahh . duno la . kinda weird u noe ?
Used to it . nvmm . o’s r wayyy more important .

prayin hard that I wil b able to make it . pray 4 me will ya ? =x

{ 8:54 AM }

Friday, June 8, 2007

hahas . it has been way too long, dont u think ?
more den a mth actually .

most importantly , I screwed up my sa1 big time . YEAH BIG TIME .
worst results in e history of my bad results .
sounds stupid . nvm ..
so anw , last day of sch ..
that day seriously sucked , fucked . wadeva .

morning came sch wif a heavy heart . cos ….
whole day in sch , my mood was like fucked up …
after sch , stil fucked up . but managed to clear e air btwn someone .
thank god for that .
things onli gt worse b4 e ptm . great mood indeed .
day dreaming . not focused . main pts frm e ptm .
culdnt sleep well ..

so it has been a wk of holidays .
I did practically ntin much .
study in e afternoon , online at night , sms or on e fone past midnight .
that is my life so farr .

need to really focus on studies .. need to seriously buck up.
cant afford nt to do well for e o level . way too important .
started on bio . my main sub for e holidays .
too many topics to brush up on .

besides this , my other distraction .
huge distraction . but oso my entertainment dis holiday .
I duno wat to do with u .
what exactly is happening btwn us ?
duno . but u noe wat . I dont care alr .
let wadeva happen , happen . Im not gg to control anything .

we are growing apart .
no matter hw hard u try , it is neva gg to be e same again.
I knew frm e very beginning . tt dis wuld happen.
when I grew close to u all . I knew .
I wont b needed one day .
u all might refuse to admit it . but cumon la .
seriously . life is diff rite .
hu m I nw … =)

one by one ahh .
today . wadeva . jus thinking bout it .
for past few days alr .
I thought bout it , but brushed it aside .
Thinking it was jus 4 e moment .
But it is getting irritating .
E way u talk to me . e way u treat me .
nw even u dont need me .
great timing indeed . nw I feel useless .
great .. mayb u do think I m useless .
I am . hu m I kidding .
even my parents think so .
so y nt u guys . =)

wadeva =)
lets move on to a happier topic .
tml . hahas .
some stupid el thingy .
e great thing is that it is at somerset .
town area . get to hang out thr =)
hmms . sure wil b in a happy mood .

okies . I cant take it .
wat exactly is ur prob ah ?
seriously . u seem worse den that CLOWN .
hu usually shows his/her temper at me .
u need me , come find me la .
dont need .. den dont care bout me eh ?
or r u feeling tt I m drifting away frm u .
hu noes .. hais .
wahh . jus realised something oso .
fucking hurtin. nvm .
great =) my mood is jus great .

wadeva , everyone jus drift away .

{ 8:52 AM }