i love today's horoscope.

your sense of self-worth is really strong &
tht shuld protect you frm any mean-spirited
comments tht come your way.
people maybe tactless but you understand
that they are nt hateful.

wahh. it jus summaries all my thoughts.

i know someone isnt happy with me. but.
wht's there to say ?
until i understand e reason fr e anger , this MADNESS is gonna carry on.
trust me.

todayyyyyyy was fun. haha.
went to jp swensens fr lunch with jj indians.
banu's birthday today =D
it was interesting la eh.
gossiping & jus hangin out.

after tht, went to je to meet up with fazee,haz&chan.
but they were gonna be late, so i ended up at popular browsing thru bks&mags.
how exciting rite ? haha.
chan came & we had to wait fr ravi to come.
he took like 4eva. haha. funny clown.

met e rest & went to acjc.
it was nice hangin out with them. including benji.
jus laughin&crapping.
hahaaa. saw a few prisch frens.
LOL. my 'bestie' fed me icecream al. HAHA.
tht was funny.
she said she wanted to talk to me privately ... hmms. yet to.
went hm at 6plus. yupp yupp.

hahas. so glad someone called today.
jus e voice makes me smile like mad. hahahaaa.
omg. nt good. hahaaaa.

ok lah. shall go off to do more stuff.
tml need to study. hais.
schooooolllll ! argh.
nights ppl.

mickey? hahaaa.

{ 7:43 AM }

i personally feel tht a mountain is being created frm a molehill.
serious.
i dnt understand why such a situation has occured.
i blame my blog.
honestly , it has affected my life b4
& it's affecting me again.

it's amazing hw e SAME words can mean DIFFERENTLY to different ppl.
i mean, if u dnt understand wht they meant, u culd hve easily asked 4 an explaination.
i dnt bite, you noe ?
why go thru e TROUBLE of asssuming?
&& creating COMPLICATED problems & CONFUSING yourself.

just to let everyone noe.
i'm in a pretty settled stage in life.
i noe wht i wan , wht i dnt wan, wht i dnt need ,wht i need,
who i need & who i dnt need.

i need friends who understand me.
honestly, is tht hard to ask frm u guys ?
i need friends who trust me, trust wht i'm doing.
even if u DO doubt my doings, at least clarify them with me.
dnt assume tht certain words i use mean a particular certain thing.
cos they may not be exactly wht u think.

& finally.
i have come to a stage in life, where i dnt care bout wht ppl think of me.
yes. i've been way too nice
& always worried about ppl's impression of me.
well, screw it.
it's my life. i do wht i want.
not born to please EVERYONE.

&& tht's why i'm writing this post.
cos i dnt care wht you ppl think this post is about.
if you think it's you ? well, screw it. dnt assume.

if you think i'm overreacting , omg.
pls look at e mirror.
tht's e person hu is overreacting.
honest.

& dnt worry, i'm nt in a bad mood.
just a certain something tht jus needed to be let out.
thinking of creating a new blog url.
might just do that soon.
nights.
{ 10:00 AM }

hey =DDD

good mood today man.
school's been quite good.

wed had eclub interview & ics meeting.
omg. i hope i get in2 eclub man.
or nt i'm left with ics. which is fun oso.
hmms. skali end up in dance ah ? wahh.
nonsense.

thur was a long&tiring day.
hahaha.
tamil lesson was funny.
onli 2 indians didnt do tamil newspaper article.
wan to guess who???
LOL. yes.
me & shiva. since BBSS times la eh.
hahaha. gd old times.

met chan&ravi after sch awhile. LOL.
funny ppl. tsktsk.
i mus thank ravi fr bringing up my past.
not once or twice. dnt noe hw many times.
haiyoooo.
met sha after tht. whole family went to west coast fr dinner.
wahh. wonderful food man.
a good meal after so many days.
went to bukit panjang awhile to send sha hm & to check out
her family's new car. WAHH.
damn nice la. black sports car.
jealous!
eheh. someone finally decided to call me. i waited e whole day man. hais.


todayyyyyy.
was bloooooody tiring.
PC was like jus runnin & runnin & more runnin.
haha. but actually ok la.
at least i feel happy tht i was doin something healthy.
& i run throughout al e rounds.
wht an achievment! LOL. nonsense.
all day long had tutorials. including 2 one&half hr tutorials.
omg. horrible.

met chan! woohoo.
wht a nice feeling to meet her.
LOL. went jp awhile. ate dinner.
came back to jurong. met ravi.
den anand. haha.
follow them go eat & poof.
i'm back hm & onlining.
sha's here =DDD

gg out tml. duh.
haha. gg to banu birthday party at swensens.
den acjc with e clique.

okok. nights.

eh.i'm like waiting! bored here.
keep to ur words okies! haha. { 8:01 AM }

hahaha.
yupps. jus great =D
happy with whtever tht's happening.
i'm really happy fr you okies ?

today was tiring, as usual.
my maths tutor, is an ass. cnt stand him.
so pathetic. hais.
school ended at 3. stayed back awhile.
ate at jurong. & came back.
hahaaa.

ok.i'm in no mood to blog all.
& i'm a useless fren.
agreed okies clown ?
fact accepted. { 3:07 AM }

hey there.
jus felt like bloggin.

ytd was quite interesting.
TRIED to complete all my hmwk b4 meeting e indians at jurong.
met chan&ravi 1st. hahaa.
funny ppl. when they are together.
LOL.

so anw, was with e indians fr dinner.
meanin, kumaran,chan,sodi&sathish.
yupps. missed them alot.
hais.
came hm at 9 & gt a scoldin fr tht.
whtever.
read thru some sch stuff & ended up sleeping.

today.
was like an average sch day.
it ended earlier den it was supposed to
cos my tamil teacher had to go somewhr.
so yeahh.
i stayed back to company renuka , cos she had IDP at 5.
studied bio. omg.
i dnt understand my maths. hve to crack my head later.
tired. like jus mentally.
ahh.

i'm sorry to my dearest clown hu sounded so pissed off on e fone jus nw.
i jus cnt afford to travel there & back la.
serious. it's nt tht i dowan spend time with u rite ?
since when i dnt like doin tht.
but i hve to stop gg out after sch al.
mayb fridays&saturdays. diff case altogether.
i need to start getting serious. on studyin.
no more social life fr me.
hais.
i feel so sad fr saying no.
but i cnt help it. no better choice.
=(

oh well.
i'm like so mentally tired.
i jus feel like sleepin fr days.
or migrating to another country.
or jus talkin on e fone fr hrs.
or jus simply locking myself up in my rm with a storybk fr hrs.
ahh.
i gt maths tutorial to finish! & my tamil compo.
&& i need to read up on my chem.
&&& i need to finish up on my econs stuff.
OHYEAH. & my bio tutorial.
wtf.

welcome back to school, tasvita. argh.

& i dnt understand wht you ppl are thinking.
haiyo. pls dnt make my life more complicated ppl.
i hve HAD enough of it.
& i dnt wanna get back into it again.
tht chapter of my life. CLOSED.
& locked.
& e key used to lock it, is thrown into e ocean.

ok. u cn clearly see hw my mind is nt workin
& tht i'm startin to talk crap.
argh.

i think i better go nw. hais.
bye. { 3:07 AM }

today was fun.
went to AJC fr e agni comp.
i met e JJ indians at lakeside, b4 gg to yio chu kang.
chan joined us at bukitbatok.
reached thr arnd 6plus. wahh, nt bad.
they started on time. impressive.

omg. other jc indian guys are better looking den jj's !
so sad la.
shuld hve jus gone to yishunjc seh. so manyyyy guys. haiyo.
wasted la.
haha. okok.
i'm nt boy-crazy al.
not desperate fr a guy oso. LOL.
but it's fun. washing eyes. & jus smiling at them.
&&& shouting out my number. HAHAH.
now tht was funny. i shuld hve shouted louder la. wasted.

JJ won e dance comp! wah.
expected la. they were good. no kidding.
i'm nt being bias al. but they were e best among e teams.
&& unexpectedly, JJ won fr e overall throphy too. cool seh.
oh yeah, SYF looks so fun!
i mean , like all e indians invovled. like so united.
wahh. looks so fun!
hmms. so i might consider joining dance. LOL.

left ajc like at 10 plus. almost 11 actually.
everyone culdnt decide on where to eat.
so e plan was cancelled. haiyo.
but i was really hungry.. so i ended up at macs. at jurong spring cc.
wanted company. so sathish came to keep me company , since he was alr out.

tht's bout it. came hm almost 1 alr.
tired seh.
stil have alot of hwmk to complete ! ahh.
tml mus stay at hm & do all of them.
hais. cnt enjoy alr.
jc life. hahaaa. i like e indians though. hmms.
everything happens fr a reason.

tht laughter was not needed.
i cn have fun w/o you.
so dnt think so highly of ur presense.
my life doesnt revovle arnd you. { 11:01 AM }

I believe that everything happens fr a reason.


people change, so that you cn learn to let go.



things go wrong, so tht u cn appreciate them when they're right.



you believe lies, so tht u wil eventually learn to trust no one but yourself.



& sometimes, good things fall apart, so tht better things can fall together. { 11:17 AM }

hello =D
this wk has been hectic.
school has offically started. how exciting. LOL.
did i mention tht i’m in an ALL-GIRLS class
& tht i’m e ONLY non-chinese student thr ?
Hahaha. i felt super weird in class.
But oh well, i survived e 1st wk.
I’m sure i cn survive 1& ½ more yrs? haha.
&& i’m vice-chair. LOL.

i stayed back alot this wk to help out with ICS.
we had to make some dance props & i was one of e I/C s.
It was fun cos i gt to noe e indians much better =D
esp my ‘BESTIE’. HAHAHAH!

e onli sad thing is tht THEGUY isnt in my same tamil class.
no chance make frens properly! hais.
he’s gd frens with e other indian gurls! omg.
I’m gonna pretend i’m NOT jealous at all. haha.
oh well, at least we’re in e SAME hse ! OWENS! =D

ytd was pretty cool.
1st prac lesson. haha. i miss BBSS chem lab lah.
esp e burette. damn.
a slack yet long day. sch ended at 5pm.
supposed to stay back & help out fr ics again.
but decided to meet chan instead. haha.
met sanjeev&lithia too.
ate at e coffeeshop near huayi sec thr.
they all came over to my hse awhile, den left.
went over to my aunt’s hse awhile.
came hm & onlineddd !

today was even cooler. haha.
oh yeah, firstly mus apologise fr nt comin to panguni!
but u all stil enjoyed w/o me la.
so it shuldnt be a prob ya =D
everything happens fr a reason! rmb tht.

Instead, i went to orchard to meet up with a smal grp of ppl!
took a train to orchard.
fazee was in e same train but diff cabin. she is a clown la.
give wrong directions.LOL.
met aisyah&hazlin at shaw place.
ended up at mcCAFE. haha.
it was damn nice to finally sit down & catch up with each other.
esp aisyah&fazee. really missed them.
Benji joined us soon after & entertained us with lame jokes.
&& i mean it. lame, super lame, rolls-eyes lame.
I duno wth he learns in acjc la. serious stuff.

eventually, after a few hrs, we moved our butts out of e seats
& proceeded to far east plaza.
walked arnd & ended up at RAMEN TEN!
omg. e tomyum chicken cutlet ramen is super spicy =D
shared it with aisyah. haha.
she managed to survive eating it ! proud of her. HAHA.
i dnt like japanese food actually, but i enjoyed today’s food.
mayb cos of e company oso la =D
&& i finally gt to eat my spicy TUNA sushi!
I jus love it. so spicy =DDD

after eating, we walked over to ngee ann city.
fazee wanted to check out ‘STADIUM’.
it’s actually a sports shop. I didnt noe tht =/
haha. clowned arnd in tht billabong shop.
tried on some shades & took a few pics =D

on e way hm , we took ALOT of pics.
or at least , we attempted to! LOL.
damn funny. but by e time we reached je ,
we managed to take a good grp pic la eh.

really enjoyed catching up with them today =D
e nxt time i’ll probably see them is at e acjc fun-o-rama, nxt sat.
but after tht , i seriously doubt any of us wil hve any time.
hais.

ohyeah. jus realised i missed alvin anneh.
it’s quite amazin tht he culd read my mind , although he doesnt noe me well.
it was nice chattin with him.
too bad, i was rushing. oh well =(

ohyeah. i was quite disappointed today oso.
hmms. I shuld hve expected it.
so ya, my fault i guess.

i think my secsch memories cn never replace my upcoming jc memories?
wht do u think ? i duno.
i jus hve this strong feeling. tht secsch wil be more fun den jc.
hmms. I like jjc. But something’s jus nt right la.
i dnt noe wht exactly though.

oh wel. I had fun today with my sec sch frens
& i hope i’ll have fun tml with my jc frens at ajc.
haha. nt totally jc frens la eh, cos chan’s coming.
I hope JJ wins tml, cos i think alot of ppl hve put in effort fr e props.
hmms.
till next wk den. nights =D
{ 9:11 AM }

like hello =D
i cant believe i’m in such a good mood.
after ytd, I feel so carefree !
like i’ve found a new meaning to life. ( hahaha. too much! I stil feel like a loner. )

today was quite interesting.
well , in e evening onwards only.
met chan & ghazali at je to go to tampines.
took a bus frm there. LOL.
we thought we were lost. but actually we werent. =D

stephanie’s birthday celebration was held at changi.
Met anand there too.
& my relative who tried to tricked me into thinkin he was someone else.
clown sia.
Seriously , if nt fr anand&ghazali, i think chan&i wuld hve died of boredom.

Managed to survive til 10 arnd thr.
It wasnt al tht bad la eh.
BUT. we were like e onli frens thr. yes.
when we aint tht close in e 1st place? so ya. Weird.

I only gt irritated when THE question was asked.
‘ which one of you is sathish’s ex ?’ . like hello.
is it tht impt to noe ?
jus cos your sis & i share e same ex , big deal eh ? it doesnt matter?
clown.
haha. okok. not tht affected la.
But stil. I hate tht reference. It’s nt a HUGE honour, you noe?
nothing so great or to be proud about.

so anw. mayb gg out fr og gathering tml at vivo.
need to go fr some ics thingy awhile b4 tht.
soooooo , i duno. I might join aarthi & sham oso.
&& i might be meetin chan at night.
OH NO. too many plans!
okok. I wil update wht exactly i did tml.
til den, nights ppl. { 11:31 AM }

alrighht . i’m like crazy over step up 2 – the streets.
the movie was released only today ,& yet i’ve alr watched e sneak preview. TWICE.
hahas. i seriously LOVE e last dance. dnt ask me why.
I jus love e way they dance.
so yeah. this is a spoiler video.
If u plan to watch e movie , i wuld advice u not to watch this.



accompanied kumaran to NP today to check out e laptops.
cool stuff . hahas. anw, enjoyed my time with clown.
I guess i wnt be meetin him often after this. besides tml la.
yeah. oh well. If e frenship is meant to be, it wil last.
I hve confidence in our frenship. =D

met up with chan oso.
chit chat at wm.
also treasuring e time spent with her.
cos we bth are gonna be busy with sch&life. Hais.
kinda sad when u think bout it.

I’m missing fazee&aisyah alot too.
yeah. been a long time since i saw them bth.
ohyeah. & my wife too. aida.
she seems to be missing al of us too.

Today, when i looked at you,i realised tht i had been blind.
seriously. I duno wth i saw in you.
I duno wht took me so long to realise this.
But i’m glad tht i finally did.

wht exactly did i see in you ?
I tried hard to find an ans.
i must hve been really keen in getting e answer.
cos i alighted at e 7-11 busstop, instead of e lakeside busstop.
cos i walked in e rain , even though i had an umbrella in my bag.
cos i walked in e open , when there was shelter.
& yet. I culdnt find an ans.

everything happens fr a reason.
today’s trip had a reason too.
I’ve finally realised tht we are worlds apart. { 6:05 AM }

& den I rmb why I wanted to go back to school ever so much.

so tht I wil be preoccupied with school stuff
& wuldnt hve time to think bout my lonely & sad life.

but nw, thanks to e holidays & e fact tht I hve been at hm lately ,
I am left to think bout my sad&lonely&pathetic life.
great. jus great.
& e weather makes it even ‘better’.
so lazy to go out .
even though there is something called umbrella.

bleah.
so bored. everyone seems busy with their own life.
too busy to meet or dnt noe whr to meet up.
e weather reduces e options of e possible venues.

&& i dnt noe wht to do at home.
i ended up studying ytd. how unexpected.
& i met up with chan @ jurong.
ended up getting wet besides hvin an umbrella with me.
haha. slacked at e streetsoccer court. weird stuff.
went to kfc fr dinner & den slacked under e blk awhile.
joined family back at jurong.

i stil cnt accept tht lithia asked me such a question ?
omg. haha. at least she noes e ans. e truth =D

todayyyyyy was like damn slack.
dad gt his new laptop. cool stuff. haha.I stil prefer desktops though. no idea why. hmms.
didn’t study . . . I’m nt a good student =X

I was alone at home. al alone.
I went to buy dinner ALONE.
I ate dinner at hm ALONE.
I’m a loner. Isn’t it obvious ? yeah. too obvious.
& I dnt hve a social life. Tht explain why I’m hm ALONE.

i’m nt gonna force ppl to meet up. cos in e end , it backfires me.& I end up hearing e comment , “ you onli wanted to meet so badly wht”.
I dnt like tht. makes me sound so . . . pathetic.

so yeah. tht’s e life of a loner.
sad stuff rite. haha.

oh yeah. i hate wht u’re doin nw . seriously. it doenst make any sense.
& I didn’t do anything to you to get this treatment.
nvm. 4get it.
decided nt to care. do wht u think is e best fr you.
i culdnt be bothered.
I gt better matters to handle =DD

nights ppl. =D { 6:48 AM }

hello.
finally gt e time to blog. haha.
this week has been quite okay la ehh.

SUNDAY
went to jp to buy my bag & stuff with mum.
visited my uncle’s new hse.
was quite disappointed by a certain incident.
Oh well. ppl hve their reasons lah ehhh.

MONDAY
school ! haha.
ok. honestly cnt rmb wht happened in school.
normal lectures & stuff.
oh yeah. went to BB with renuka they al.
met chandini =D
it was nice to see her after such a long time.
happen to meet sha too =DD
wahh, so nice to meet 2 of my fave ppl.

TUESDAY
school again. haha.
I made frens with most of e Indians !
what an achievement. LOL.
after school, went out with renuka & komala.
met shafiq ! so nice to see him after a long time.
yupp yupp.

WEDNESDAY
school school school.
lol. ics orientation. ntin so great.
gt a chance to talk to tht clown I’ve been tryin to talk to.
FINALLY ? hahahah.
hmms. gt to see e Indian seniors. quite a few cute ones.
Haha ! oh yeah. joined e entrepreneur club. LOL.
wht a cca. nvm. get to be involved with a upcoming opening of e new café.

THURSDAY
schoooool. haha.
ntin so great tht day. ate at kfc with renu & e rest.
renuka & komala came over to my hse.
slacked arnd.

FRIDAY
alevel results day.
haha. damn slack. onli 2 lectures.
& tamil was like some get-together-session.
met kumaran&sathish. like after one wk of convincing.
Our SUPPOSEDLY last meeting. haha.
I enjoy arguing with tht two clowns lah. no idea why.
was in a damn talkative mood throughout e day.
went home at bout 5 after e results.
met mum & went to tekka. haha.
bought 3 new hindi dvds =DDDDDDD
onlined til I gt bored & sleepy.

TODAY
gt awoken by my brother. cos he wanted mac breakfast.
stupid seh. spoil my sleep.
went to macs with dad , tashan & lithia.
sha joined us awhile later.
sha & I went to cut our hair. She reborn-ed hers.
bought dinner & stuff. watched hindi dvd.
slacked in my room fr a few hrs with her.
she ended up sleepin & I ended up here.
onlining. yupps. hw exciting.

i need to start studying. haha. hw sad.
so lazy to start seh. stil in slack mode.
march holidays. shal take this chance to meet up with my frens.
miss them alot =(
last wk of freedom. hais.
nights ppl. { 9:06 AM }

haha. hello =D
okies. I advice you to leave this webbie nw , cos this post is gonna be long.
yupp. & it’s jus updates. ntin interesting or gossip-worthy =D

so. flashback.
I cnt rmb wht I did last weekend.
oh yeah.

SATURDAY
met kumaran&sathish awhile.
met sathish gf oso. haha. funny stuff.
anw , met chan & went to Queensway.
Bought stuff & ate at macs.
Headed bck hm after tht.
Onlined & stuff.

sunday ,I cnt rmb.
mus hve slacked at hm.
*shruggs *

MONDAY
went to sch. mass lectures.
quite a long day. Ended sch at 3.
Met chan after tht & went to lot1.
bought a few stuff.
went back hm. Onlined.

TUESDAY
aisyah’s birthday.
met sathish&kumaran fr lunch with ashvini.
funny ppl. clowns.
went bck to sch at 3. wahhhh.
Drag until 5.45 ?
Made kumaran&sathish wait until den. OOPS.
until kumaran gave up & left.
rushed back home. with some help frm sathish.

Rushed to causeway pt.
Ate at pizza hut. Felt bad la.
cos aisyah alr ate at pizza hut fr lunch.
too bad seoul garden had become so freakin ex ?
bought some stuff fr camp & went hm.
too tired to online.

WEDNESDAY

first day of camp =D
had to wake up so freakin early la.
morning had mass dance. fun ah.
cos my partner enthu . so cn la.
quite happening.

had lunch. food was good. LOL
yes. hahaha.
had some game in e field. which involved getting wet !
fun stuff =DDD
showerin was horrible.
Imagine 5 ppl in one cubicle w/o any hose to shower ?
yes. yes. horrible.

after dinner , had song singing session.
Thought it wuld be boring , but it turned out to be so emo.
yeah. good time thr.
after tht, had some night game arnd e school.
quite fun la eh. nt bad.
by e time we settled down to sleep, it was alr 12.
talked to OG mates til I felt asleep.
was smsing too.

THURSDAY

happening day. =D
didn’t bother to shower in e morning .
brushed teeth onli . hahaha.
had telematch after breakfast. gt wet again !
LOL. So happy to see my OG cheerin, man.
like finally al enthu.
didnt bother to wash up cos knew tht we were gonna get wet again later in e afternoon.

had mass dance once again. haha.
e last dance we learnt was damn nice la =D
loads loads & loads of cheering ! & I mean ALOT.
Finally e much awaited kinetic warfare came !
Wahhhh. E best activity ever la eh.
Cheerin like mad. Shout like mad. Run like mad. Get soaked like mad.
So nice to see OG11 so united & cheering.

gt e chance to shower properly. haha. like finally.
had dinner. & den had JJ nite.
damn happenin la. dancing like mad ?!?!?!
e last part damn emo though. e time with e OGLS.
Seriously , I think they did a great job fr e camp !
They put in so much of effort. I mean a lot.
Sacrifice their sleep & time fr us. jus to make sure we enjoy e camp to e fullest.
Really appreciate it. thanks alot. =D
Culdnt sleep properly tht night. duno why oso.

FRIDAY

Last day of camp was quite slack.
E highlight was e Eweb activity , where we al had to reflect bout e camp.
Yeah. quite cool to noe wht everyone thought of e camp.
& it was sad to noe tht my ogls thought they didn’t do a gd job in bondin us.
Oh well. u cnt expect it to be perfect ? at least we al made frens & enjoyed ourselves.

camp finished at arnd 1 plus.
but stayed in school till 3 , cos we wanted to go JP fr OG lunch with e OGLS.
Went to JP with my HEAVY bag with e rest of OG11. Horrible.
Ate at macs. haha. e aunty give al of us free icecream seh.
Nice woman =)
Talktalk until almost 6 alr. they wanted to go lepak at blk thr.
i was too tired alr , so I went hm 1st.
took shower al. went fr dinner.
Went to grandma’s hse & ended up sleepin on e sofa.
was DAMN tired.
came hm & almost immediately slept.
In btwn my beauty sleep , had a few smses , but was too tired to reply to al.

TODAY

woke up like at 11 plus.
Almost 12 hrs of sleep.
yet after lunch , I fell asleep on e sofa til 4 plus.
went fr teabreak. bought stuff & headed hm.
went to suntec at night fr dinner & to buy stuff.
wanted to buy a bag , but e shop was closed btt I went thr.
stupid seh. Oh wel.
Thr is always tml.
Onlineddd & m still onlining.
smsing oso.
yawns. gonna go off soon.

Till next wk den =D { 10:04 AM }

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