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Friday, October 31, 2008

STAYED AT HOME ALL DAY. =)

finally. i can relax.
holidays are here. but not for longg.
I MADE PASTA TODAY. why is it a big deal?
cos i made my own sauce todayy. didnt use e readymade one.
yay ! success.
my next aim. indian food =)
cos i must know how to cook fr my husband..
not tht he deserves it *raises eyebrows*
shuld jus let him suffer with OUTSIDE food fr e rest of his life.. ass.

so anywayyyyy.
played online game e whole afternoon.
watched DVD with sha and mum at night.
now i'm here.
busy weekend ahead ! cant wait ..

P.S. PAMELA,MELISSA&LINGLING.
u three are so screwed fr eating BEN&JERRY'S W/O ME !
i'll handle you all next wk... !!!

haha. loads of love ppl.
nightsssss!

{ 8:19 AM }

Thursday, October 30, 2008

hello.
what's there to say.
my past few days were fun enuf.
my weekend was spent preparing fr deepavali.
cleaned up my messy room.
hanged out with family members.
didnt even bother to do I&R. damn i suck.

DEEPAVALI this year was quite fun.
e lunch at dad's side was boring cos SANJEEV wasnt thr.
busy studyin his ass off fr o's. all e best clownie.
KAVIN wasnt there either. in aussie.
deepavali isnt e same w/o them i guess. hmms.
DINNER was more fun. camwhoring with cuzins.
didnt eat much though cos i was quite pissed at a moment.
some ass MIA-ed e whole day.
sure took advantage of tht bet.

too tired to go to school on tuesday.
self-claimed leave.
went to vivo to watch HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3.
lol. e dances were cool. but e storyline ? predictable ah.
culdnt eat much on tue either. weird.

weddddddd. haha.
i didnt go school =) but i left my hse at e usual 7plus anw.
met the clique at JP fr breakfast.
hanged out at e library lookin fr COOKING bks.
gonna make PASTA tml ! cant wait.
went back to school fr TAMIL.
watched DVD at home.
studied for TAMIL.
tried to sleep.. but really culdnt.

TODAY. ALEVEL TAMIL PAPER.
damn. i hate e comprehension.
but managed to do e rest though. THANK GOD.
praying fr e best. hope i get an A somehowwwwwww.
spent time with LITHIA just now. fun times.
love her loads.
bought my pasta stuff at west mall jus nw.

boo. i miss my best fren.
it's been 9days ? correct ?
hais. just when i need a shoulder to cry on.

heroin is finishing his o's soon. great i guess.

life. i just dnt know how to describe it.
just waiting fr this phase to pass.
how long will this last?
well , i'll just hve to wait and see.

PASTA day tml. let's see hw it goes.
loves.

{ 8:51 AM }

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

damn. cramps sucks.

this weekend was fun.
saturday was spent at my cuzzy's hse.
nice to see the whole gang once again =)
too bad i'm too young to club. hmmm.
sunday had e deepavali prayers .
oh man , what a feast. ate whatever i could.
that explains why i couldnt eat any meal til ytd.
too full man.

monday was a boring day. serious stuff.
i cant even rmb wht i did.

TUESDAY.
what an exciting & tiring day.
no lessons. sports carnival.
took part in e interclass netball.
played 4 out of 5 matches cos my specs broke durin e 3rd match.
played two matches w/o specs. what a blind bat.
i should hve stretched more. cos my legs are hurting like mad now.
my toes were hurtin like mad ytd !

after school , i got dressed up & met chan.
followed her to thread her eyebrows den headed to marina square.
bought benji's present.
waited for fazee, aisyah, aida, diyana, benji, hazlin & her bf.
ate a happening dinner at seoul garden !
damn. i ate alot. haha.
so missed my clique. i mean. no one can replace these ppl.
we can just click even though we haven seen each other fr ages.
love you ppl ! meet up soon k.
took loads of crappo pictures. aisyah was busyin realising something.
*ahems* chan was busy lookin somewhere when she was talkin to me.
omg. thank god they are females.
went to esplanade with aisyah, her bf , fazee & chan.
haha. had loads of fun with them =)))))
cant wait fr e next outingggggg !

TODAY WAS A BORING DAY.
damn i hate gg school now.
cos i dnt benefit anything.

i miss fazeelah khan ! jus realised how much ytd.
much loves gurl.

{ 7:11 AM }

Friday, October 17, 2008

this week flew by quite fast.

1) i'm still stoning in school.

2) i'm most probably promoted to J2. hmms.

3) i've been reading alot of bks lately.

4) OP is getting boring. tired of readin e SAME speech over&over again.

5) i didnt go out much this week.

6) i've finally done my ezlink card. after 10mths.

7) i'm waiting to see my secsch CLIQUE on tue fr benji's burfdae.

8) i cant wait fr next fri . class dinner.

met my heroin today. what a happening day.
went town to meet mother. bought a few stuff.
gonna go out tml. i'm bored.
i'm extermely bored.
*yawns*
nights.

{ 8:45 AM }

Monday, October 13, 2008

it's a brand new week.
how exciting.. i dnt even noe why i bother gg to school.
all i do is STONE. during lectures&tutorials.
or read my book. or sms my life away.

this weekend had been fun.
saturday went fr e np show.
honestly, it was one of e most boring shows i've been to.
*sorry kumaran! i noe u put alot of effort into this.
but it was fun nevertheless cos chandini was with me =)
sathish,ravi,anand,uma,pavithra,gaya&rachel came oso.
sodi & his 2 pj frens came along too.
too bad shafiq didnt come =(
alot of e JJC indians came too..

went to HOLLAND V with chan.
as usual , we decided to eat something new =)
i love our food adventures. LOL.
e peach yogurt after dinner was also happening.
had a great time with my bestie =)
walked to buona vista mrt with her.
accompanied her to BB. den took a bus frm there.
=))))))

sunday was quite slack. read my book.
watched tv.
culdnt be bothered to study.
chan asked me to come meet her.
gladly did.she wasnt really in a good mood ...
after readin her blog entry, i reconfirmed it.
always here fr u babe =)

my boyfriend is greatly missed .
haha. he has been making me laugh my ass off fr a past few days.
i love you , mad fellow =)

kk. i shall go do something else.
nights ppl.
much loves.
p.s fazee, u're greatly missed ! =D

{ 5:44 AM }

Friday, October 10, 2008

i culdnt sleep on thrusday.
not after that conversation.
i culdnt stop e tears.
too much to bear.

i culdnt concentrate on friday.
i was pissed with my mum.
she didnt allow me to go meet the gurls.
she wanted me to follow her out.
sorry bout tht fazee. i noe u really wanted to meet up.
i noe wht the meeting meant to you.
it means alot to me too. i miss you =(
thanks fr calling on wed. it was great chatting with you.
i promise we'll meet soon.

i culdnt be very much happy on friday.
esp since i hadnt heard ur voice all day.
but thanks to my clique, my smile was back.
i enjoyed our trip to swensens.
the cookie summit icecream lightened my mood.

when u said u wanted to meet me, i was happy.
even though it was a mere 1& 1/2 hrs.
it still made my day.
thanks baby. i love you.

today. i'm gg to ngee ann poly fr tht show.
i aint exactly very excited bout it.
no idea why.
but e thought tht i wuld be with chandini
puts a smile on my face.
i miss my bestfren.

there's ntin left to say.
i hope i get promoted to J2.
cos i dnt hve a future w/o my A's.

goodbye people. till the next time

{ 10:03 PM }

Thursday, October 9, 2008

nothing seems to put a smile on my face anymore.
why? i just cant put my finger on it.
jokes. amusing stories. company of my loved ones.
nope. the smile on my face is definately not genuine.
yes, i can be the clown i'm known to be.
but it's only to make the ones around me smile.

been self-reflecting alot lately.
trying to understand how my mind works.
how did i get myself into such a situation.
life seems to be getting duller as each day passes.
everything seems black and white.
the setting. the people. the emotions.
my feelings have numbed.

at first i brushed it off , thinking it was a mood swing.
only to realise that the mood didnt seem to be swinging at all.
it has remained at depression mode.
loneliness has set in.
the spark of happiness in the eyes vanished.
what is wrong with me ?
why am i feeling like it is the end of the world?
that i will never be happy again?

family. friends. boyfriend.
arent this the people who are supposed to be there for me ?
then, why am i feeling so lonely ?
so lost.
where is the attention i need ?

am i losing my touch ?
have i blended into the background of life ?
or have i been able to hide my weakness too well
that no one realised this feelings hidden in me ?

i duno what i'm trying to say here.
what's the point anyway.
it's not like this entry is gonna affect anyone.
nothing left to say.

{ 12:31 AM }

Saturday, October 4, 2008

100th post of this blog. haha.
this isnt my 1st blog.. so yeah.
not really considered my 100th post la ehh.
this should be quite a longgg post.
bear with it. or nt. just leave =)

this past few days have been fun.
yupp yupp. =)

FRIDAY!
finished school at 1.30. woots.
i JUST passed my chem mcq. LOL.
so expected. who cares.
i can afford to fail.hehe.

WENT to meet chan at jp fr manicure.
damn. nails are damn short alr.
cnt irritate e life out of mel & pam =(
i like to scratch their legs with my long nails!
met naiimah & went to WESTMALL.
waited fr kumaran & sodi damn bloody long.
typical indian timing siaaaa !
haha. e pics we took .. damn funny.
can be seen in kumaran's blog =)

went to Musyirah'S HOUSE.
her house is damn nice ! serious stuff.
damn big too. e food was good =)
crapped & clowned arnd.
missed all e clowns man.
esp kumaran, sodi & naiimah.

SATURDAY!
haha. happy 3 mths clown!
met heroin at DG. standard meetin venue.
watched house bunny.
not tht great afterall. quite lame&funny.
that actress is a damn bimbo.
BOUGHT MY SHINNY RED ADIDAS SHOES. yay me !

it's a simple design but i stil like it, esp since it's red. yupp yupp. i'm happy with it.

went fr dinner with mum,bro,my cuzzin & her guy at novena.

jap food. hahaaa. damn. one of e WORST jap food i've eaten.

managed to survive tht though =)

watch EAGLE EYE at 11.50. e movie is cool la.

seriously.. damn action packed.

walked back home frm JP at 2am. nice weather. haha.

SUNDAY!

i'm just slacking my life away.

shall get started on tamil tml ! i will make sure i do.

hmms. gonna find something to do now.

takecare ppl. =))))))

{ 11:28 PM }

Thursday, October 2, 2008

today was a useless day in school.
didnt study. didnt get any results.
just useless.
ate at pastamania with clique, tracy & liling.
met chan. went vivo to check out e shoes i wanted.
went somewhere else to meet our fren. haha.
came back to jurong with chan. ate dinner.
met sathish. haha. so long never see him sia.
slackin my life away at e com.

ytd was a slacking day too.
went to uncle's house fr dinner.
sanjeev's birthday =)
e ass is finally 17. woohhooo.

i'm bored.
& i want tht shoe !
one hundred & five dollars.. worth it ?
hmmms.
&& tasvita's weakness hasnt left her yet.
hais. tht suckssssss.

gonna meet chan again tml.
cant wait.
nights people. ntin else to blog about.
you left me disheartened.i'm never suggesting tht idea again.i dnt deserve to be rejected.i'm tasvita. & i have an ego.
i dnt like to be taken advantage of. live with that.

{ 6:32 AM }