you'll never see me cry

Friday, February 22, 2008

haha. it’s weekly updates frm this wk onwards !
school’s startedddd !

okies. flashback.

monday sathish’s birthday .
went to sentosa celebrate. cut cake all.
sodi,kumaran,farhana,chan&me.
of cos, sathish oso laaaa.
they cycled. went in2 e water =)))
damn fun ahh.
ate dinner at carls jr with sodi,kumaran&chan.
took bus back home.

Tuesday morning at 6.17am,
I received an sms saying tht I gt in2 JJC, sci stream.
HAHAH. Fated la eh.
After al e cursing. Hahahah. Thanks a lot, god.
Busy smsin ppl bout al e results.
Nt bad la eh. most of them gt in2 e course/sch they wanted to.

watched dvd e whole afternoon.
alvin anneh came over in e evening =DDDD
chan came over fr awhile too.
Hanged out with anneh throughout e night till he had to go.
Tried to sleep early. but culdnt.
Nt used to sleepin early laaaa.

Wednesday. 1st day of school.
Woohoo.
JJ ogls are superduper hyper.
Anw , 1st day mostly admin stuff.
Loads of talks.
Saw a lot of pri sch frens & outside frens.
Sch ended at 2. ate lunch at kfc with vhaishnavi.
went hm & slacked throughout e dayyy.
Onlined till late at night.

THURSDAY.
2nd day of school.
E day to choose subject combi.
Besides e usual GP & PW & MT,
I chose H2 econs , chem. & maths.
&&& H1 biology.

2nd day was more happening cos thr were many cheers
& e mass dance.
My dance partner was so blur til I oso blur alr.
But it was fun anw.
After school , went to eat at e coffeeshop with vhaishnavi
& two other swiss cottage gurls , reunka & komala.

In e late afternoon , chan came over .
Den we met naiimah & headed to city hall.
Went to marina square & ended up eating at swensens
with dianne & diyana.
aida&benji joined us thr after school .
met aisyah b4 rushing towards to padang.
YAY ! sg gets to host e youth olympics !
=)))
SO PROUD.
&& JJ cheerleaders were e main ppl thr.
so cool.
they really gt e crowd movinggggg !
so prouddd of my schoooool . LOL.
my frens’ & my mood were like super high
after all e dancing & cheering.
took a few pics too.

most had to leave. ended up at starbucks
with chan & aisyah.
damn ex la. worse den coffeebean.
& I find e coffeebean drink better.
ok, mayb I chose e wrong drink ? hu noes.
Chitchat awhile , den left alr.

omg, as much as I’m lookin 4ward to JJ .
I’m oso feeling sad , knowin tht I’m gonna meet my frens less often.
esp ytd’s clique. loves.
=(
oh yeah. I oso miss e Indians alottttt. =(
hais.

I like JJ’s spirit. But I oso feel quite lost thr.
Mayb cos I haven made ENUF frens thr to feel comfortable jus yet.
Oh well. it’s only e third day today.
Today was jus more talks on cca & non-academic stuff.
Bought e uniform today oso.
ate lunch at kfc with komala&renuka.
ehh , nt e cedar one. frm swiss cottage.
lepak under e blk awhile. chitchat.
den they walk with me to my hse,
b4 headin towards e mrt station.

=)
&& here I am at home.
Onlining nw.
Gonna meet chan later. I think.
LOL.
Oh well. I miss BBSS. alot.
But I’m looking 4ward to JJC too =D

ehh, main aim of orientation camp.
get to know that guy. Hahahahhah.

till another day =)

{ 2:19 AM }

Sunday, February 17, 2008

i feel second rated.
ahh. nothing I do seems to be good enuf.
nothing. omg.
I cant be THAT bad rite. ahh.

SECOND. fuck.
I aint 1st ! jus second.
for everything. damn.
I rather be nothing, den SECOND !
yeah sure. i may nt be 3rd. or last.
BUT STILL.
that simply means I’m nt MOST impt.
& yes. I’m a freakin leo
&& I have ego problems.
ABOUT COMING IN SECOND. ahh.

I dont like it. at all.
as much as I culd see , u didn’t wan to end e conversation with me.
I culdnt take it.
I didn’t have e mood to carry on with e conversation.
esp knowing that someone else was waiting fr you.
it was clearly obvious u didn’t like ending e conversation.
but wht’s e use.
we bth noe that u hve much impt things or ppl to attend to.
yeah. that’s e reason why I kept on saying bye.

yes. end of my frustration.
=)

hahahahahahahahaha.
cant wait fr later.
right right.
ANYWAY,
happy birthday , sathish !
love ya. haha. rightright.
as a fren.
^ fr all those ppl , hu wil conclude differently.

loves.

{ 8:22 AM }

e past few days weren’t too bad.

vday was spent mostly with chan.
e usual la eh. jus like any other day.
i mus thank her 4 spendin it with me though.
she culd hve always met other ppl up.

friday was supposedly family day.
I spent e whole morning cleaning e hse.
cos dad was too sick to do anything.
some of my parents’ frens & relatives came over
after eating dinner.
Left at 2am.
was fun with lithia arnd. as usual.

went to cityhall ytd with aisyah.
watched e chingay.
ate icecream at GELARE. haha.
chan joined us. they collected their pay.
took e TOPGUN. omg.
freakin POWER!
went hm at 12 plus alr.

today , went to sembawang.
mum’s fren’s hse. big seh !
like 4 stories. like some dream hse.
with swimming pool. damn.
came hm after that alr.
coming down with fever.
thanks dad …

boo. tml gg sentosa.
some clown’s birthday.
haven bought anything yet.

ahh. I’m jus so lazy to blog bout my thoughts at e moment.
I’m jus kinda irritated/confused. yet happy.
weird rite ? i oso dunoo.

e more I try to walk away frm u, e more u jus pull me back.
wht’s up with that dude.
i dont get you. mayb i dont wish to anymore.
washing my hands off you.

{ 7:10 AM }

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

haha.
today was uber fun with aarthi & joelynn.
met aarthi at lakeside b4 headin down to vivo.
haha. bought tickets for jumper (sneak preview).
then settled down at banquet for lunch.
nice catching up with her =D

joelynn finally joined us there with her own
bunch of stories. haha.
very entertaining & unexpected indeed.

bought that oreo mousse for 4.50 dollars..
omg. It was damn worth it la.
eating it while watchin e movie.
E movie was really nice oso. worth e money.

joelynn bought some skin for her hp.
so had 1 hr to do ntin , waitin for e SLOW lady to finish
applyin e skin.
went to toys’rs & stuff. clowning arnd.
re-living our childhood.
I kinda spent my childhood with joelynn.
So yeah , memories !

wanted to take train frm habourfront station.
went to e platform. Bout 2-3 non service trains passed.
kinda irritated . so took a cab to dhoby ghaut instead.
met tharshelia thr. she works at city hall.
took e red-line train . as in e one passin by woodlands & all.
damn freakin slow. haha.
but it was ok. the company was entertaining enuf.
reached hm at 8.30.

dad is still really sick. horrible.
never seen him so sick b4.
feel bad for leavin him at hm jus nw. tsk.
at least I took care of him e whole morning.
Oh well.i hope he gets well soon.
E family isn’t quite right w/o his liveliness & naggin. HAHA.

Tml is valentine’s day.
like u ppl didn’t alr noe that ahh.
Gonna meet up with certain frens. Ahh.
How confusin . duno meetin hu ,at wht time seh.

It is at these times , I wished I had a bf.
So I can simply jus spend my whole day with him.
Ahh. Stop dreamin ,TASVITA.

I love all my frens.
So it seems right to spend this day with them. correct ?
Ahhh.

the stupid feelin of loneliness haunts me again. save me.

You actually thought of me. I duno wht u expect frm me though.
I’m nt letting my guard down. Nt even for a min.

{ 8:02 AM }

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

hello =D

I cant rmb what exactly I did last weekend.
i was with my family all e way.
since Friday.
It’s nice to spend time with family.
But yeah. kinda bored of it alr.
missed hangin out with my frens a lot.

ytd was nt too bad.
Met chan for lunch at jp.
been almost 5 days since I last saw her.
Catched up on stuff. Yupps.
Nice to see her after a long time ahh.

Saw hazlin at jp too.
Haha. pon lessons only ahh. Tsktsk.

Happen to see benji walkin towards jp too.
But he culdnt hear us callin out to him
cos he was listenin to his mp3.
oh well.

After that, met sathish awhile.
Follow him jp to buy stuff.
But eventually , he didn’t buy any. clown.
den walked back hm with him .
yuppppppppppps.

went to temple at night. haha.
my dad gt irritated cos he kena fined
for parkin in e season parkin lot. oops.
ntin so happenin thr.
no hot guys to look at oso. cmi.

came hm & onlined. e usual la ehh.

today gt woken up my mum at 8.30.
Asked me to company dad to clinic.
Cos dad was really weak.
He still is. He’s sleepin nw.
I gt some cream for my face as well.
Omg. E pimples are horrible man. Serious.

went for breakfast.
I can forget bout lunch. Super full.
No plans for today though.
Sad case.
Might go down awhile if anyone calls me.
Shall carry on watchin my desperate housewives online.
Yes. Season 4 =D
not out on tv yet. lol.

bye ppl.

{ 11:34 AM }

Thursday, February 7, 2008

haha.
eve of chinese new year. woo.
public holiday. like tt’s supposed to make a diff to me.
it’s jus like any other day.

YESTERDAY

had to wake up early to go to school.
only 3-4 hrs of sleep.
&& I left e hse late knowin some clown wuld be late.
predictable seh . hahah.
went to sch. met most of my frens.
really missed them. esp fazee&aida they all.
kumaran oso. too bad e rest of e Indians weren’t there.

E concert was boring. expected.
went to west mall , burger king for lunch.
aisyah left 1st.
slacked at e playground below chan’s hse awhile.
den went to JP.
Ended up at mcCafe. I sat with chan&naiimah.
E rest were at e separate table.
So yeah. catched up on each other’s lives.
although I had ntin much to share.

went home early. was really tired.
i told e Indians I culdnt come to e funfair
cos I thought my parents wanted to go out.
Eheh. I made such a sacrifice for ntin.
My parents ended up gg clubbin after dinner.
Disappointing. Tsktsk.

Haha. but Lithia came over. So yeah =)
It was fun cos I was watchin American pie , naked mile online.
&& my bro&Lithia culdnt help but watch too.
& laugh their asses off.
Oops. I’m a bad influence ah. Hahah.

Onlined&slept.

TODAY

ntin much.
morning was spent talking to ranjit attai&Lithia,
who stayed over at my place e night b4.
haha. den went to jurong for lunch.
& den proceeded to my aunt’s new hse.
Chitchat awhile & den came hm.
Onlined&watched tv.
uncle&aunt came over.
Left at bout 2am.
&&&&&

Here I am now. Onlining&bloggin.

Oh yeah. my older brother is greatly missed =(
Even only he knew.
how attached my family has become to him.
i cant rmb a day we have nt talked bout him,
ever since we met him.

haha. life is indeed unpredictable.

Nights.

{ 11:06 AM }

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

like hello.

ytd was tashan’s birthday.
went to causeway with chan.
been quite awhile since I last saw her.
so yeah , catched up on stuff.

took 187 back home.
saw some clown cycling arnd. haha.
I met hazlin ! wht a pleasant surprise.
kinda realised hw I missed all my frens.
alot seh .

evening went to swensens to celebrate tashan’s birthday.
a few of my relatives were thr.
quite an eventful dinner.
hadnt seen this grp of ppl for a LONG time.
& thanks for e ‘gift’ , aunt.
really appreciate it.

gave tashan e present chan&I bought.
simple customized keychain.
onlined thru e night.

today was fun.
woke up at 11plus & came online.
&& chatted with alvin bro for duno hw long.

went to JP with aisyah.
ate at long john silver . our lunch.
haha. ok la. talking bout e usual stuff.
moved on to McCafe.
cos someone wanted oreo cheesecake.
HAHA. It was nice spending time with her anw.

&& den my dad fetched me frm JP.
he was in e car with alvin bro. *SMILES*
came over to my hse. chit chat.
ranjit attai & lithia came over awhile too.
but had to go to some concert.

fetched mother frm work & proceed to
e usual coffeeshop for dinner.
bought a few stuff & headed back hm.
we carried on with our chit chat till ranjit attai & lithia
joined us back again.
my dad finally sent alvin bro & attai back hm at 1 plus.
&& here I am onlining nw.

ehh. my older brother is loved. =)

cant wait to see my frens later.
missing them like mad.
nights .

{ 9:54 AM }

Sunday, February 3, 2008

haha.
sat was an unforgettable day.
met e latest addition to e family.
who happens to be a hot&popular dancer.
haha. nice to noe tt he is a friendly person.
super nice fellow.
practically spend e whole trip talking to him.
&& I took pics with him. =)

haha.
don’t get me wrong.
he’s like a brother to me. cousin actually.
jus getting used to e fact tt we are related.

the engagement was ok la.
loads of ppl. msians esp.
food was fine. ntin much la.
e only reason why I enjoyed myself.
was cos of e company of my relatives.
esp my aunt & alvin bro.

lazy to give details bout what exactly happened.

today was spent lazing at hm.
until some relatives frm msia came to visit.
went to taman jurong for dinner with them & my aunt.
they came over to my hse awhile.
i was busy talking to my aunt bout some interesting stories.
i love my aunt alot =))))

so yeah. that was bout it.
my weekend.
it’s my brother’s birthday tml.
haven bought him anything yet. oops.

haha. super good mood.
&& i cnt wait for e next meet up.
so fun to be with them.

i miss my friends too =(
so long never meet seh.
esp chan & fazee.
&& e others too la.

oh well. soon la eh.
nights ppl.

{ 9:04 AM }

Friday, February 1, 2008

It’s alr feb. damn.

ehh. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, karthik !
lols. Like he’s gonna read this anw.

E past 2 days hve been spent slacking.
yes, I’m tryin to save money.
Hahahah.

YESTERDAY

Met up with kumaran&sathish awhile.
pass kumaran his superduper late birthday present.
ehh, at least he kinda liked it.
he left early to meet his gf. so yeah.
I headed back hm lors =))))))))))))))))

read my book e whole afternoon.
went to swensens in e evening.
thank god I didn’t eat breakfast&lunch.
dinner was filling.

Came back home & onlineddddddddd.

TODAY

was kinda dull.
I finished up my book though =)
ehh , i cant count e number of times they did it.
tsktsk. I shuld stop reading such bks.
HAHA. RIGHT ?

went to town with my parents.
i felt like an only child.
thanks for nt coming, Tashan.
realised hw bored I wuld hve been if I was the only child.

Nvm. good to spend some quality time once in awhile.
HAHA. okkkk.

so yeah. my com outside isn’t workin.
stupid seh. damn fed up.
no privacy usin e com in e rm.
unless parents are asleep.
luckily they are workin adults hu need sleep ALOT.

i’m excited bout tml.
I get to see him. like sit in e same car as him
AHH. Hot stuff.
ehh , eyecandy la.
not crush all. he’s distant related for god’s sake.
HAHA.
I love hot dancers. huge turn-on. =)

cant make it to sathish hse tml.
oh well.
wrong timing , i guess.
nvm. no regrets. =)
I get to see some hot stuff in msia.
=DDDD

nights.

{ 8:47 AM }