you'll never see me cry

Friday, September 25, 2009

wow. it's been almost two months.
too many things have happened. good&bad.

my prelims are over.
screwed them up real bad. but im nt really disheartened.
tht's what i deserve fr e amt of effort i put in.
so now, im working hard.
i actually studied just now.
friday night. amazing. hahah!
i hope i manage to pull thru this.
7weeks to go. =)

i've turned 18. haha.
alot of outings fr that.
i got a surprise party! organized by my fave indians. lol.
many other treats after that..
with aarthi&van , chandini , subash & fazee.
oh yeah, && butterboy. how can i forget..uhhuh
each outing was fun&special in its own way.
really grateful fr having such wonderful frens in my life.
love you guys =)

my social life is screwed till a's end.
it's okayy. it's better this way.
i need the time to studyy.
so need to do well and get into uni.
hais. gotta endure.
the revision lessons seem quite helpful.
4more weeks till i'm off fr studybreak.

i feel lost.
i lost u once,clown & i dnt noe if i can handle losin you all over again.
i dnt noe if i can keep up with this facade.
it hurts. it's painful.
every night, i sleep with a heavy heart.
are you worth all of my energy and tears?
hais. i dnt noe what to do with you.
& i cant make any drastic decision now.
cos im afraid tht it might affect me very badly.
tht i might lose focus on my alevels.
my education is too impt to be ruined by you & your fickledmindedness.
i pretend to be strong. but im no where near there.
im not an emo. im human. i have feelings.
so if i do mention about things linked to my emotions, im normal.

i need to get this yr over and done with.
it has been a rollarcoaster of emotions.
a new problem arises every month.
different ppl contributing to my stress level.

awaiting the 3rd of dec.
the countdown begins.

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