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Friday, June 8, 2007

hahas . it has been way too long, dont u think ?
more den a mth actually .

most importantly , I screwed up my sa1 big time . YEAH BIG TIME .
worst results in e history of my bad results .
sounds stupid . nvm ..
so anw , last day of sch ..
that day seriously sucked , fucked . wadeva .

morning came sch wif a heavy heart . cos ….
whole day in sch , my mood was like fucked up …
after sch , stil fucked up . but managed to clear e air btwn someone .
thank god for that .
things onli gt worse b4 e ptm . great mood indeed .
day dreaming . not focused . main pts frm e ptm .
culdnt sleep well ..

so it has been a wk of holidays .
I did practically ntin much .
study in e afternoon , online at night , sms or on e fone past midnight .
that is my life so farr .

need to really focus on studies .. need to seriously buck up.
cant afford nt to do well for e o level . way too important .
started on bio . my main sub for e holidays .
too many topics to brush up on .

besides this , my other distraction .
huge distraction . but oso my entertainment dis holiday .
I duno wat to do with u .
what exactly is happening btwn us ?
duno . but u noe wat . I dont care alr .
let wadeva happen , happen . Im not gg to control anything .

we are growing apart .
no matter hw hard u try , it is neva gg to be e same again.
I knew frm e very beginning . tt dis wuld happen.
when I grew close to u all . I knew .
I wont b needed one day .
u all might refuse to admit it . but cumon la .
seriously . life is diff rite .
hu m I nw … =)

one by one ahh .
today . wadeva . jus thinking bout it .
for past few days alr .
I thought bout it , but brushed it aside .
Thinking it was jus 4 e moment .
But it is getting irritating .
E way u talk to me . e way u treat me .
nw even u dont need me .
great timing indeed . nw I feel useless .
great .. mayb u do think I m useless .
I am . hu m I kidding .
even my parents think so .
so y nt u guys . =)

wadeva =)
lets move on to a happier topic .
tml . hahas .
some stupid el thingy .
e great thing is that it is at somerset .
town area . get to hang out thr =)
hmms . sure wil b in a happy mood .

okies . I cant take it .
wat exactly is ur prob ah ?
seriously . u seem worse den that CLOWN .
hu usually shows his/her temper at me .
u need me , come find me la .
dont need .. den dont care bout me eh ?
or r u feeling tt I m drifting away frm u .
hu noes .. hais .
wahh . jus realised something oso .
fucking hurtin. nvm .
great =) my mood is jus great .

wadeva , everyone jus drift away .

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