you'll never see me cry

Monday, November 26, 2007

This post goes out to my one of my fave & dearest clown.

I’m so sorry I culdnt make it last Saturday.
It’s not that I didn’t want to come.
i already planned to come la. asked permission on mon all.
Till thur, I was like so confirmed that I was coming.
Even asked fazee bout e outing & all.
Den on fri, mum told me had family gathering & I culdnt go far.
As far as downtown east.

I was sad, scared & disappointed.
I really wanted to go, clown.
Believe me. Cumon la.
How many times I ask u bout e outing.
U think I didn’t want to go ????
so I didn’t know how to handle e situation when u called.
I was very sad when u hanged up on me.
I understand ur disappointment.
I understand ur anger.
I understand why u’re ignoring me.
I don’t blame u for it.

But do try to understand my situation.
U noe my mother. How cn I go against her wishes.
I had to spend my whole day with my cousins.
Chandini was there, & she knew hw upset I was bout not gg.
Hais. seriously.
I didn’t dare call u after that.
I was afraid to hear ur reaction.
U’re one person I’m always afraid of hurting.
Cause you mean a lot to me.
&& u know that very well.
U know very well how affected I get when u ignore me or get angry with me.
It drives me crazy.

Clown, please talk to me.
Confront me at least. Scold me?
Anything but giving me the COLD SHOULDER.
It’s too hard to bear.
U cant leave me here in sg & go to dubai w/o talking to me !
That’s just torture.
Just thinking of the fact that u’re angry is driving me nuts at this moment.

U’re a great fren clown.
&& I am repeating this for e millionth time, I really don’t wana lose u.
A great listening ear.
Someone hu knows me inside out.
Someone hu understands me, wo me saying a word.
A mind-reader.
Someone hu I just love talking hrs on e fone with.
Someone hu made an impact in my life.
Someone hu makes me smile oh-so easily.
Someone I’m gona miss soooo much next yr.
Someone I love dearly&purely&sincerely. My dearest clown =(

&& thanks fazee. For introducing this clown to me.
Take care of him. I noe u will .love ya both.

Hais =(
Just wish we culd talk like normal.
I miss u clown.
It’s been 3 days.

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