you'll never see me cry

Tuesday, January 8, 2008

why cant this feeling jus disappear ?
this feeling of loneliness.
It’s not that I hve no frens.
I duno. I jus feel lonely.
&& that feeling sucks laaaaaaaaaa !

MONDAY

woke up late to an empty hse.
Decided to laze on e sofa with my bk.
Chan called, gt ready && met her at bb.
Happen to meet kumaran & sodi.
Went to coffeebean at 1st . hahas.
Den changed our minds & went to pastamaina.
Only chan & I ate. All talked crap.
Sathish came awhile & left .
Proceeded to e mac behind sch.
Saw alvin& e 4N’07 gang.
Chatted awhile more.
Kumaran went hm.
Sodi, chan & I carried on chattin under e voiddeck.
Finally went hm at 6 plus.
Gt ready & went to temple.
Grandma’s death anniversary.
Came hm && onlinedd.

TODAY

woke up cos of fazee’s sms.
got out of bed cos of sodi’s fonecall.
took a quick shower & tidied e hse while on e fone with fazee.
Rushed down to KFC cos two clowns were waiting for me.
Till nw I don’t understand y they think I was angry with them. Crazy.
Went to borrow dvd.
What an almost impossible task.
Den went to kfc to eat. happen to see sathish.
Went to my hse. Watch mr&mrs smith.
Chan left at 2 & sathish came at tt time.
He left at 3. arnd thr.

Hahas. I walked with sodi allllllll the wayyyyy to bukitbatok.
Yes. a 45-min walk.
Didn’t realise hw time flied by cos we talked all e way.
Waited with me till 187 came.

Hahas. den fazee called ! & she wanted to meet.
So met her near my hse . && we walked to my hse.
Sat by e swimming pool & talkedtalkedtalked.
I really missed her =DDDD
After I took my shower , we went to e malay coffeeshop near e CC .
Ate & talkedtalkedtalked.
Walked with her to e busstop. & u get e pt la.
We culdnt stop talking.
Hais. I really missed spending quality time with her. Alone.
Thanks for today , fazee =D
Oh yeah , thanks for e delicious doughnuts too. Damn nice =DD

came home & here I am onlining.
&& i jus realised hw lonely I’m feeling seh.
Like no aim in life.
Like some loser in this world. Wth.
Yes. I feel like a lonely pathetic loser with no aim in life.
Okok.
Oh yeahh. I’m gonna go down to my poolside tml & read my bk.
It’s such a nice place thr. So windy & cosy.
Oh well. let’s see what tml brings.

&& happy advanced birthday to KUMARAN !
Hahas. love yaaa clown. =DD

{ 6:25 AM }