you'll never see me cry

Sunday, April 26, 2009

electrochem test takes place tml.
& here i am , sitting in front of my com.
thank god i'm okay wit bth topics.

ytd was a great. spent my night at sha's hse.
good food. good company.
& loads of stories.
atleast, my loved ones are enjoyin their life.
was there till 2am.

my fone's screwed.
i lost my number7 keypad.
so i'm using my dad's old N73.
i shuld hve done tht a long time ago.
cnt wait to get a new fone in june.

i just watched twilight.
just felt like watchin it.
okay, mayb it was nt a good idea.
looking at edward's love hasnt made my mood better.
uhhuh.

i cant get over it.
if anyone had said tht to me, i wuld hve accepted it & moved on.
but no. it had come to a stage where YOU were tellin me that.
you ? like wht had e world come to.
it felt like a smack on my face. a hardddddd one.
something tht woke me up.
what was i thinkin man ? u were right.
& e worse part, deep down .. i knew that.
but i just didnt care bout e concequences at tht pt.
i just did what i felt like doing.
what was i thinking ??????
ahh. i dnt like e feeling.

all of you can ask me to get over it & all .
but wtf wil u al understand ?
u've never been in my situation.
or probably never wil.
so my advice ? keep ur comments to urself.
i dnt wanna hear it.

april sucked. i wish may brings in more happiness.
i wish i culd go back to april2008.
i know i was damn fucking happy at this time last yr.

life & its paths.
expect the unexpected.
you dnt noe when it will all come crashing down.
& suddenly u dnt see e reason fr ur existance on earth.

well, tht's hw i feel nw.
i dnt see e reason.
i dnt see e need.
i'm jus workin hard in sch.
nt fr myself. fr my parents' sake.
fr their happiness.
fr all their hard work in raising me up.
tht's all i'm living fr nw.
fr them.

speechless.

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