you'll never see me cry

Friday, April 10, 2009

i've lost it.
i've lost my drive.
my drive to study.
my drive to lead a happy life.
what's wrong with me ?

this week was pretty dull.
i dragged myself to school every morning.
i anxiously waited fr school to end everyday.
i was always findin someone to meet after school.

i'm nt used to being so free.
not used to being so .. boring.
yes, i think i've become a bore.
i feel aimless.
i feel bored.
i feel lonely.
i feel ....... i dnt noe.
but wht i do noe is tht, i HATE this feeling.

i noe i'm supposed to be studying.
& concentrating on my A's.
but i jus cnt seem to do that.
last wed, i spent 3 hrs at my table.
starin @ my complex numbers.
stoning. trust me, ntin went into my head.

damn. i hope this is jus a temporary emotion.

i choose to believe tht u're an ass.
cos it seems to be a much better & easier option.
compared to e other possibility.
i dnt like dwelling over this.
i dnt like to find excuses fr ur actions.
i hate unsolved puzzles.

life goes on , doesnt it ?
yes, mine is.

hais. i'm just need some drive to move on.
searching for it.

damn. i got econs tml morning.
2 & a half hrs of boredom.
nights.

{ 7:12 AM }