you'll never see me cry

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

woahhh. my blog's dead. haha.
quite expected huh. it's been almost 2mths.
LIFE HAS BEEN A ROLLARCOASTER RIDE.
haha. ups&downs&ups&downs. exciting ? nt really.

probably the worst 2 mths of this year. damn.
ALEVELS.is.the.worst.crap.i've.been.through.
i've never been more stressed or annoyed.
my social life,well,was non-existent.
chem.bio.maths.econs.gp.
*knock head against wall*
i hope my hard work pays off.
cos i'm so not gonna REPEAT alevels.
nah ah... no thanks.
i had several breakdowns in btwn. not cool.

well, of cos, my life wasnt ALL about alevels.
as much as my social life was non-existent,
i stil had other stuff to handle along the way.
butterboy was one. thought it might hve ended there.
but no, it didnt. still there. doubt it's gonna end anytime soon.

so, i'm left with one freaking paper. BIO MCQ!
damn MOE. hw the hell do they schedule the papers?
now i gotta wait 10 days, jus to sit fr a freaking MCQ paper.
this sucks.
but if you knew me well enuf, u wuld noe that it aint gonna stop me
fr celebrating.
yes, my celebrations alr started ytd, when e chem MCQ ended.
life's good. well, atleast on e outside =)

im afraid that now, since alevels is over(almost),
i might start thinking bout the other aspects of my life.
alittle more den usual.
you noe, since im so free...
hais. that's nt tht good.

ive reached a saturation point.
anything can happen & ill probably just accept it w/o a care.
ive become more pessimistic den ever.
i assume about everything & anything.
it sounds bad, but honestly i dnt think it is.
it helps me cope wit this ever-changing life,
filled wit fickle-minded people.
trust me, my life's full of them.

i still think to myself, wht exactly m i expecting frm this.
& honestly, i really dnt noe.
im just expecting e worst, so that when it happens, i wuldnt crumble.
i cant afford to let myself go into a state of pity.
been there, had a hard time coming out of it.

i dont noe. I always have been in a state of confusion.
is it worth of this pain & energy ?
i keep asking myself that, & i never seem to get an answer.
my brain & heart dnt seem to ever agree wit each other.
& i've given up wonderin which one to listen to.
yupp, once again, i'm gg with e flow.

JAYSEN'S coming back. haha.
that's something to look forward to.
meeting him on thur. =)

gonna go out with van&aarthi tml. haha.
it's been a longgggggg time since we all jus hang out.
cant wait!

NEW MOON! next week. hahaha.
eh, it's not gayyyyyy. tsk.

this holidays are gg to be a blast.
that's a promise.

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